An update. Yes. Yes. Update.

WOOO! It's officially my second of sem break and honestly, I'm running out of things to do... you know, things that don't require me to move my tush from the couch.

So, here's what happened to my sembreak so far:

- got myself seasons 1-10 of FRIENDS (Yey! Cause it's THAT good. It's THAT fun. And cause I loveee Chandler Bing and Monica Geller THAT much) last Sunday in Metrowalk. And I am in Season 5. Yey. 3 days of FRIENDS. I have no life. :))

- got myself PUSHING DAISIES season 1 (because, apparently, up until now, season 2 has not been release yet) last Sunday also in Metrowalk. Was going to start that later

- borrowed Twilight from Fatty and finished reading it. --> Side note: It was all about the hype, really. I mean, I've read Harry Potter fanfictions with almost the same plot... only there, they're wizards and not vampires.

- got myself a DVD of Mama Mia, Tropic Thunder, Lake House, If Only, The Notebook, Sweet November, Notting Hill, The Holiday (which didn't work as it was supposed to), The Painted Veil, Scoop, Ever After, Catch and Release, Message in A Bottle, Two Weeks Notice, Kate and Leopold, Maid in Manhattan, A Walk in the Clouds and It's A Boy Girl Thing. Don't worry though, they come in those "30-in-1" disks you buy in Quiapo. I'm not that retarded. :))

- got myself a DVD of all these Julia Roberts stuff. Also comes in the "30-in-1" disks I bought in Quiapo

- had a 2-night, 2-day sleepover at Fatty's where we karaoke'd all night and did our pop star/rock star/ rapper impersonations and watched FRIENDS and stuff


So, yeah, basically, I haven't really fulfilled my goals for this sembreak (to be listed on a later entry). All but one: the headbands. YEY. So, now I have the really cute thin headbands.

I am such a little girl.


Serious.


Grabe na talaga ang mundo ngayon, second year college na... at ambata ko pa din. EVER. I want to rant about having a non-existent love life.


At ang funny ng life a, dahil kailangan talaga batuk-batukan ka niya na hanggang ngayon, wala ka pa din boylaloo at ang mga lovers nagsisisulputan na sa tabi-tabi. Can you feel the love? I sure as hell can't.


So, I have this friend. We were talking about non-existent love lives a day ago. And just in the spirit of fun, we were playing the "what ifs". And still in the spirit of fun, we were talking about delving into the Ateneo underground blind dating service. YEHES. I repeat, for the spirit of fun. It was actually really cool, we read about it in the school news paper. There're two ways on how you go about it:

1. You give the people in charge a set of characteristics you want in a guy (sounds reeeeeeally desperate, I know), and then they set you up.

2. You give the name of the person you want and then they try to hitch you. :)) Funny.

So, I repeat, all in the spirit of fun. That's why they call it casual dating. :D

We were planning to set my friend on one of them dates with Kuya. :> And making plans and shizz. And theeeeeeeeeen... just today, she gets asked out by her crush. :))

And I have another friend who apparently has a boy now. I would say I would be super kilig if not for the fact that I am being bitter now.


But I shall say no to Seligman's learned helplessness, FIGHT, MARION, FIGHT! Time will come, right, God?

THE TEN CONYOMANDMENTS

got this one from BUDOY.

Conyo here, conyo there, conyo everywhere! Conyospeak has become an unofficial language as a good chunk of the student body knows, or maybe even mastered the socialite tongue. However, one must never forget the basics of the conyo and we thusly bring you: The Ten Conyomandments.

1. Thou shall make gamit "make+pandiwa".
ex. "Let's make pasok na to our class!"
"Wait lang! I'm making kain pa!"
"Come on na, we can't make hintay anymore! It's in Andrew pa, you know?"

2. Thou shall make kalat "noh", "diba" and "eh" in your pangungusap.
ex. "I don't like to make lakad in the baha nga, no? Eh diba it's like, so eew, diba?"
"What ba: stop nga being maarte noh?"
"Eh as if you want naman also, diba?"

3. When making describe a whatever, always say "It's SO pang-uri!"
ex. "It's so malaki, you know, and so mainit!"
"I know right? So sarap nga, eh!"
"You're making me inggit naman.. I'll make bili nga my own burger."

4. When you are lalaki, make parang punctuation "dude", 'tsong" or "pare"
ex. "Dude, ENGANAL is so hirap, pare."
"I know, tsong, I got bagsak nga in quiz one, eh"

5. Thou shall know you know? I know right!
ex. "My bag is so bigat today, you know"
"I know, right! We have to make dala pa kasi the jumbo Physics book eh!"

6. Make gawa the plural of pangngalans like in English or Spanish.
ex. "I have so many tigyawats, oh!"

7. Like, when you can make kaya, always use like. Like, I know right?
ex. "Like, it's so init naman!"
"Yah! The aircon, it's, like sira!"

8. Make yourself feel so galing by translating the last word of your sentence, you know, your pangungusap?
ex. "Kakainis naman in the LRT! How plenty tao, you know, people?"
"It's so tight nga there, eh, you know, masikip?"

9. Make gamit of plenty abbreviations, you know, daglat?"
ex. "Like, OMG! It's like traffic sa LRT"
"I know right? It's so kaka!"
"Kaka?"
"Kakaasar!"

10. Make gamit the pinakamaarte voice and pronunciation you have para full effect!
ex. "I'm, like, making aral at the Arrhneo!"
"Me naman, I'm from Lazzahl!"

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On another news...

Hi MARYEL, LOU AT LEKI.

I have a new crush. WOOOOOO. :)) Kamukha niya si Jesse Spencer ng House. :)) HAHAHAH.

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UPDATES ON MY ACAD LIFE: Tapos na ang gen psy project WHEW. Man o man, at buti na lang suspended ngayon. :| sorry na talaga, di ako naka-aral sa chem midterms at dahil napakaganda ng life, nilipat ang testing date next WEEK wednesday! WOOOHOOO.

LIKE WOAH

How long has it been since my last update?

Sorry blog, for a while there, I must've swept you under my rug. :))

So. I was reading my earlier posts just a while ago when I realized that most of the junk written here is about or touching on my NON-EXISTENT LOVE LIFE. I have written extremely gross and emo shizz and it's making my stomach take a 180 degree turn just thinking about it right now. So, from now on, I resolve to deviate from ranting on and on about almost lovers and deposit all those shizz in my CIRCA filing cabinet.


I MISS YOU BLOG! I do I do I do. :D

2nd year 1st sem has started.... obviously. And for my faithful readers, namely Maryel (http://onesweetmarshymalllows.blogdrive.com) and Papa lou, I made up an update of my sophomore year.

A Marion Update: SOPHOMORE YEAR SO FAR

- bumabaril na ako... ng target papers, WOO.
- classmate ko si chever ng chever ni JAI REYES (it's not like people are going to see this, right?)
- tried out for CADS and got into the second auds but I didn't push through with it 'cause I'm scared like that
- nakabili ng PLAIR WALDORF HEADBAND. (Hah! Mars, meron din ako. :)))
- nagfoofootsal
- naging chapter head ng YFL sa Nativity
- nagkaroon ng dalawang panalo sa basketball sa UAAP. :D :D :D :D :D :D :D
- nagkaroon ng United Nations crushes
- natuto mag-espanol
- nag-sport ng DORA HAIR
- nagmahal... ang presyo ng Juicy Juiz.
- na-addict sa House
- at namimiss ang PUGAK (Onga pala, guys, kilala kayo ng friends ko. AWWWWWW. Shempre kwentong-kwento ako diba)

Maryel a, usapan natin.

Pugaks.

Birthday ko.

Ateneo.

Ust uniforms.

At Drew's. :)) Can relate?


GOOD JOB.

THE David MINI-DESPEDIDA.

So at the end of the song, At the Beginning, I found myself crying.

I went to hug Alyssa and told her that I'm going to miss her BIG TIME, and then I looked up to see him just standing there. And then I hugged Alyssa again and told her I'm going to miss her BIG TIME, totally ignoring HIM. Not even a pat in the back, no.

DEMMIT.

I'm not saying that if I did go to him and gave him an acknowledgement, there would be a positive response; but perhaps if I did do something- anything, how the day ended would be much much different. And I wouldn't be musing about it in this journal.

GAH. I hate the feeling of REGRET.

There is a freakishly unbreakable GAP, I just know it. He knows I'm crushing on him because of the constant teasing and he's feeling awkward about it 'cause that awkwardness SHOWS. I don't know. Maybe it's just me.

I just feel bad about not giving him a proper goodbye, you know. And yeah, I admit, I feel sad that daydreams will remain as daydreams.

And I feel terrible that there wasn't a closure- you know, a proper acknowledgment that they would be gone a week from now. That's the bad part. I hate it when the closure is not there. It just leaves you hanging. It's almost as bad as the feeling of REGRET.

You don't have a clue
What it is like to be next to you
I'm here to tell you
That it is good, that it is true.

I know I'm going to regret writing this in the morning.

Perhaps the thing I mostly regret in 2007 was those many times that I have taken a friend for granted. :(

Man! I let my bestfriends down, I just know it. It became more of a title than the real thing. Like Driza. I miss us. :( Before, we used to go to each other's houses but now, there's like a gap present between us. I don't even know things about her anymore and she doesn't know a single thing my new-found friends know. And then there was Wisdom. I just came across one of her multiply posts and it got me so sad that I was pushed to write this entry. The post was one of our outings to Laguna with the family. She talked about the night when we were jus talking about stuff and the past and how fun it was to get to know each other better. Now, even though we go through YFC events together, it seems like it's just not the same.

It's like a habit. Would I always start building barriers whenever a friend comes too close?

Pathetic.

ON A MORE SERIOUS NOTE.

How frail human life can be. I cannot even begin to imagine how frail human life can be.

I wrote this blog entry after I had this dream:

I dreamt that... I was dead. I didn't even know how I died, in my dreams, I was just a wandering ghost. I witnessed my sister and brother talking and couldn't join in. I was only listening. I remember visiting my grandfather on the mother's side, Lolo Tonio. He was a strict person- the type who becomes proud of a grand daughter but doesn't tell that directly. He was sweet that way. He was in my dream and in my dream, he was the only one who could sense me. Let alone touch me and hug me. I was crying, he was too. After that, I remember telling my mom and dad about it. I remembered blogging about it (yes, in my dream, I still blog). The dream ended with me going out of a bookshop, Christmas time, me alone with someone and I asked her, "Patay na ba talaga ako?"

I woke up right on cue and after a few seconds of taking it all in, I started sobbing like hell. I felt like I was shivering all over. More than fear, I felt loneliness mostly on that fact that in my dream, I wasn't able to touch, get this, my brother and sister again. That thought made me cry even harder.

And this got me thinking- I was lonely because I wasn't prepared at all to die. I mean who is prepared to die? When do you even know if it's your time? How can you even prepare for what is actually un-prepare-able, something no man who have ever tread upon and come back to retell his tale?

A simple answer: You can't really prepare for death. Doing so would be like saying you're in control of your death and in extension, your life. You don't. 'You are a speck in reference to the vast universe around you, a mere syllable uttered from a single word', as Octavio Paz puts it in his short story, The Blue Bouquet. You don't control everything in the end- I'm sorry to burst the bubble. What's left for us to do is to rely on a higher being, God, and take life as it comes one step at a time.

As for me, all I want to do right now is to attend the 'simbang gabi', see the sunrise and breathe- breathe like there is no tomorrow.

R.I.P Joey of the Ateneo de Manila University and Troy Baniqued. May you experience unspeakable happiness wherever you are.

MARION CAUSING

One year nalang College na.
Excited na sa college life at sa pagtatahak ng landas ng tunay na mundo.
Isa sa mga nagnanais pumasa sa ATENEO. Proud Atenista.

A hopeless romantic, sucker for romantic comedies, college lovelifes, and ironically, also "boy films" (A term coined for gorey, thriller films). Lives a life filled with ironies (i.e. I call myself lazy yet determined).
My one true refuge: God.

1Sam16 : 7 "Man looks at the outward appearance but the Lord looks at the heart"

Loves and obsessions. PNE. Spongecola. Strawberries! Eman's sense of humor. Reggae music (don't care about the specifics. As long as it's Caribbean reggae, it's all good)

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